Thursday, April 23, 2009
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
kicking bird
so, FINALLY, a post that will not be full of fears, or worries, or morbid thoughts.
today we had our second appointment with our dr. we had an ultrascreen which is, basically, an ultrasound that assesses a mother’s risk for having a baby with Down syndrome and trisomy 18. everything went great! the sonographer was very excited for us...at first the baby wasn't moving much, (of course the first thing i did was look for the heartbeat! and there it was, just beating like crazy! ) so she shook the belly and woke it up- it started stretching, and kicking, sucking it's thumb....omg it was the most amazing thing i've ever seen. i couldn't believe it! there it was right before me, my baby! with it's own little ways, already! i welled up pretty good. how could you not?
from the beginning there have been all sorts of names for this being to be. to begin with, there's been a handful of people that have known that we were tyring to get pregnant. so, needing to be able to talk about it required a code word. hence; operation shrimp. nuf'said, right? shortly after we found out we were pregnant we calculated our due date. which is, oct. 30- so we decided it was going to be a little pumpkin and that by this time, it must be a "pumpkin seed". then i finally told my business partner/long time friend. almost immediately we joked about naming it after her (who we call LB) and her husband garen. "garina lebesky". then there was a phase where the "what to expect when you're expecting" website sent out an update of what your baby's doing and informed us that is was approximately the size of an olive. "olive oil". next,it was "butter bean". i'm not sure exactly where that came from for sure, other than thinking that's about the size it must be. right now it has two names that it consistently goes by... "lil bean" and "kicking bird" lil bean is from a joke i made standing in the kitchen with a friend about if we were "les-beans" it must be a "little bean". and kicking bird just flew out of my mouth the first time i saw it kicking it's little feet.
we won't know the sex for sure for a few more weeks. it's really a toss up. in the very beginning i thought we'd have a boy. then, i thought , no, we're going to totally have a girl. then, ironically, all these random people and situations would say that it was a girl. we've pretty much been in the girl vibe pretty solid for awhile. now, recently, i've started feeling a boy. don't know what that means exactly or how to explain that but i have. then today, our sonographer says....."i can tell you what i think though it's not accurate yet. see this right here? boy or girl, both have this at this point before it develops futher. but girls, it usually rest closer to the body and this one is sticking straight out. there have been a few that i missed, but i'm gonna say you're having a boy"!
WOW.
either one is fine with me. there are things that i love about both. if it's a girl, it's going to be surrounded by strong beautiful women that will affirm her identity and power and independence. and if it's a boy, it will be surrounded by stong beautiful women that will teach him sensitivity and grace and respect. and when i say women, i also mean people. we are so blessed to be surrounded by individuals that are all, beautiful, amazing people.- black and white, straight and gay- male and female- this will be a beautiful blessed child. i can feel it.
today we had our second appointment with our dr. we had an ultrascreen which is, basically, an ultrasound that assesses a mother’s risk for having a baby with Down syndrome and trisomy 18. everything went great! the sonographer was very excited for us...at first the baby wasn't moving much, (of course the first thing i did was look for the heartbeat! and there it was, just beating like crazy! ) so she shook the belly and woke it up- it started stretching, and kicking, sucking it's thumb....omg it was the most amazing thing i've ever seen. i couldn't believe it! there it was right before me, my baby! with it's own little ways, already! i welled up pretty good. how could you not?
from the beginning there have been all sorts of names for this being to be. to begin with, there's been a handful of people that have known that we were tyring to get pregnant. so, needing to be able to talk about it required a code word. hence; operation shrimp. nuf'said, right? shortly after we found out we were pregnant we calculated our due date. which is, oct. 30- so we decided it was going to be a little pumpkin and that by this time, it must be a "pumpkin seed". then i finally told my business partner/long time friend. almost immediately we joked about naming it after her (who we call LB) and her husband garen. "garina lebesky". then there was a phase where the "what to expect when you're expecting" website sent out an update of what your baby's doing and informed us that is was approximately the size of an olive. "olive oil". next,it was "butter bean". i'm not sure exactly where that came from for sure, other than thinking that's about the size it must be. right now it has two names that it consistently goes by... "lil bean" and "kicking bird" lil bean is from a joke i made standing in the kitchen with a friend about if we were "les-beans" it must be a "little bean". and kicking bird just flew out of my mouth the first time i saw it kicking it's little feet.
we won't know the sex for sure for a few more weeks. it's really a toss up. in the very beginning i thought we'd have a boy. then, i thought , no, we're going to totally have a girl. then, ironically, all these random people and situations would say that it was a girl. we've pretty much been in the girl vibe pretty solid for awhile. now, recently, i've started feeling a boy. don't know what that means exactly or how to explain that but i have. then today, our sonographer says....."i can tell you what i think though it's not accurate yet. see this right here? boy or girl, both have this at this point before it develops futher. but girls, it usually rest closer to the body and this one is sticking straight out. there have been a few that i missed, but i'm gonna say you're having a boy"!
WOW.
either one is fine with me. there are things that i love about both. if it's a girl, it's going to be surrounded by strong beautiful women that will affirm her identity and power and independence. and if it's a boy, it will be surrounded by stong beautiful women that will teach him sensitivity and grace and respect. and when i say women, i also mean people. we are so blessed to be surrounded by individuals that are all, beautiful, amazing people.- black and white, straight and gay- male and female- this will be a beautiful blessed child. i can feel it.
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